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How My C-section Birth Spurred Me On To Teach Prenatal, Birth and Postnatal Yoga

WARNING! Triggering birth subjects discussed

 

I dreamt of the perfect birth. It was meant to be a home birth; just me, my husband, and the lovely Edgeware homebirth team. So, then what happened? Why did I end up with a c-section birth? Read on and discover how my c-section birth spurred me on to teach prenatal, birth, and postnatal yoga.

I was going to give birth in a pool and feel like an incredible woman who just did the most amazing thing

Then Covid hit. I ‘wasn’t allowed a homebirth’ and my dreams were shattered in seconds!

If you experienced the same during covid, I am truly sorry. I KNOW how bloody hard that was!

However, I was still determined to have a natural birth. I started meditating and visualising myself in the Barnet birth centre. Practicing my breathing and Yoga daily to make every effort to stay in control.

Then the day came. I went into labour. I remember a blissful few hours with gentle contractions coming and going. Me watching ‘The Hitchhikers Guide To The Galaxy’ in the bath and then my husband and I watched ‘Knives Out’ together.

Then I made the stupid decision to call triage and tell them my waters broke and that’s when it all went downhill.

WHAT HAPPENED NEXT CHANGED ME FOREVER

For the next 48 hours, I was in and out of the hospital, subjected to hours alone plugged up to a CTG monitor. Exposed to countless vaginal examinations. Given a number of sweeps I didn’t ask for. Made to feel like my baby’s life was at risk (which I now know it wasn’t) and to top it all off, made to have a caesarean. And I say made to because again I was made to believe my baby’s life would be at risk if I didn’t.

So it’s safe to say I did not get the birth I dreamt of. It was far from it and left me with PTSD and birth trauma, which 2 years later I’m still working on and will probably always have to work on.

If you want to read more about my birth you can read the more detailed description here

Then I made the stupid decision to call triage and tell them my waters broke and that's when it all went downhill.

SO WHY DID MY BIRTH LEAD ME TO WHERE I AM NOW?

I suppose you can guess that really. My c-section birth spurred me on to teach pretnatal, birth and postnatal yoga because I want to do my very damn best to help as many people as I can avoid what I went through.

I have spent the last 2 years training in birth preparation, pregnancy, birth and mindfulness Yoga teaching, corrective exercises for pre and postnatal, reading ALL the books I can on birth, caesareans, caesarean recovery, birth trauma, applying all of the above to myself, to students and I will be forever learning.

What I have discovered though is truly that knowledge is power and that preparation and really deep and effective preparation is the key to allowing yourself the very best possible chance to have a physiological birth. Whether that’s a first birth or VBAC.

HOW DO I FEEL ABOUT WHAT HAPPENED NOW?

It’s a weird one really because there is a lot that still makes me horribly sad about the birth of my gorgeous son. Like the fact I didn’t hold him for at least 30 minutes after he was born because they took him out of me, took him away and then put him in the cot next to me and I wasn’t well informed enough or mentally strong enough to tell them no and that I wanted my baby now! As I am writing this I’m getting choked up.

It’s hard, it’s really hard. But another big part of me knows this all happened for a reason and that reason was to support people like you. To help you have a beautiful, goddess like experience. It also happened to make me stronger, to make me realise I never ever have to abide by other people’s ideas or ‘rules’.

As much as you may not believe me, for that, I really am truly grateful for the experience I had!

I have spent the last 2 years training in birth preparation, pregnancy, birth and mindfulness Yoga teaching, corrective exercises for pre and postnatal, reading ALL the books

HOW CAN MY EXPERIENCE HELP YOU?

This is the big question. I know that’s what you’re here for and I don’t blame you. Birth is scary enough as it is when you’re walking into the unknown, but I’d say it could be even scarier if you’ve had a traumatic past experience like I have.

This is where my experience helps you. I’ve been through the crap, I’ve done ALL the research I know what’s needed to help you control your fears. I know what you need to do physically encourage your body to do what it is in fact made to do (even if you’ve been led to believe otherwise) I know how to help you navigate this shitty birth system we’re living in and I know how to inform you on what the truths are and what the myths are (believe me there are MANY myths!)

If you’ve come out the other side and have had your baby and it didn’t go as planned then you know working with me you’re working with someone who’s been through the same thing and physically and mentally done the work needed to start coming out the other side.

I could not believe the lack of info out there for the normal new mum. You see, because I’m a yoga teacher who has had a lot of training in therapy and post-natal recovery, I already knew a fair bit but still nothing about the differences between vaginal birth recovery and C-section recovery. 

I had to search high and low for videos, books, speak to people I know who have done post-natal recovery training and then put my own common sense into the mix. 

The excitement I now feel when a student turns to me and says I feel ready to have my baby now is amazing and the happiness I feel when they come back to me and say they had a beautiful experience and can’t thank me enough for the information I gave them is just incredible. and then to work with women who’ve been dealing with post caesarean problems like back pain, belly pooches, numbness, pain and more and to hear that they finally feel like themselves again and feel strong is so damn heartwarming.

 

How could I not love what I do!? I DO ALL THIS FOR YOU AND BLOODY LOVE IT!

How could I not love what I do!? I DO ALL THIS FOR YOU AND BLOODY LOVE IT!

SO, now the big thing is if you have read this and felt like you want to be where I am now or where my students are then book a class with me now!

OR if you are pregnant and want a VBAC, get my 3 Days to Pregnancy and Birth Confidence Challenge  here